love and hate ....date by date

Wed, 04 May 2005 06:55:14 GMT

well the opast week has been grand i have been fucked up all fucking week and its nice to not have to relize your problems

happy times

fuck the bullshit

Wed, 27 Apr 2005 17:59:44 GMT

all my recent journal entries below are nothing but BULLSHIT

Mon, 25 Apr 2005 00:05:57 GMT

1. What is your name? kristina

2. What color underwear are you wearing now? pink and black

3. What are you listening to right now?black rain drops by dark lotus

4. What are the last 2 digits of your phone number? 59

5. What was the last thing you ate? cajun chick ramen noodles

6. If you were a crayon what color would you be? time of the month red or just took a dump on your chest after getting freak w\ it brown.

7. How is the weather right now? alittle nippy and sunny.

8. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone? jacquelyne

9. The first thing you notice about the opposite sex? their penis. just kiddin.
if they can make me laugh

10. Favorite Food? burritos

11. Favorite Drink? sprite or vanilla coke

12. Favorite Alcoholic Drink? .....jack and coke

13. Favorite place to shop? hottopic

14. Hair color: well its multi but it i have faded red roots and black middle and fadedd red tips

15. Eye Color: brown

16. Do you wear contacts? nope

17. Top or Bottom? bottom

18. Favorite Month? probably June.

19. Favorite Fast Food? sonic

20. Last Movie you Watched? dazed and confused

21. Favorite Day of the Year? any day thats fun

22. Are you too shy to ask someone out? it depends

23. Summer or Winter? Fall and spring

24. Hugs or Kisses? Both!!

25. Chocolate or Vanilla? Both

26. Do you want your friends to respond back? not really.

27. Who is most likely to respond? nobody and I'll tell you why....

28. Who is least likely to respond? everyone

29. What books are you reading? no.

30. Favorite TV Shows? via la bam , degrassi , i want a famous face , truth life

31. What's on your mouse pad? nothing

32. Favorite board game? fuck board games

33. What did you do last night? slept and then stayed on the phone w\ greg and then cryed

34. Favorite Author? meh working on that

35. Who inspires you? chuck and angie and kaite

36. Butter, Plain or Salted popcorn? Butter with salt yep

37. Dogs or cats? CATS ALL THE WAY

38. Favorite Flower? flowers are for funerals

39. What do you say when you wake up in the A.M.? wtf im going back to sleep

40. Do you still talk to your best friends from middle school? i dont keep best friends to long

41. What's on your desk? pffftt desk.my computer my phone and some empty coke cans

42. Rock Concert or symphony? rock concerts

43. Play or Opera? none

44. Have you ever fired a gun? nope but my first would probaly be my last

45. Do you like to travel by plane? i never travel

46. Right-handed or Left-handed? Right

47. Smooth or Chunky Peanut Butter?both are good.

48. How many pillows do you sleep with? i have like 5 but i only choose to use 2

49. City and State you were born in? memphis TN

50. Ever hitchhiked? nope never have anywhere to go

Sun, 24 Apr 2005 08:33:21 GMT

She put him out like the burnin' end of a midnight cigarette
She broke his heart he spent his whole life tryin' to forget
We watched him drink his pain away a little at a time
But he never could get drunk enough to get her off his mind
Until the night

[1st Chorus]
He put that bottle to his head and pulled the trigger
And finally drank away her memory
Life is short but this time it was bigger
Than the strength he had to get up off his knees
We found him with his face down in the pillow
With a note that said I'll love her till I die
And when we buried him beneath the willow
The angels sang a whiskey lullaby

(Sing lullaby)

The rumors flew but nobody knew how much she blamed herself
For years and years she tried to hide the whiskey on her breath
She finally drank her pain away a little at a time
But she never could get drunk enough to get him off her mind
Until the night

[2nd Chorus]
She put that bottle to her head and pulled the trigger
And finally drank away his memory
Life is short but this time it was bigger
Than the strength she had to get up off her knees
We found her with her face down in the pillow
Clinging to his picture for dear life
We laid her next to him beneath the willow
While the angels sang a whiskey lullaby

(Sing lullaby)

Sat, 23 Apr 2005 19:56:50 GMT

well last night i hung out w\ chuck and he was all talkign about how he was just going to tell me and katie fuck it which he did and it really upsets me but i know its for the best wen we went out to eat he put it in a better way of just needing time to figure things out so i was like okay . i know it hurts me deep down inside but its for the best and a part of me a very small part seems not care while the others crying horrible .. like angie said ive got alot stronger on my emotions and i hold that to alot of my friends b\c after while of crying you just seem not to cry anymore .. but yea i havent talked to chuck all day and i aint going to call so i dunno when me and him are going to talk and im scared kaites going to call and hes just going to talk to her i dunno im just scared me and chuck aint going to be friends
and i have a feeling we aint going to be for much longer and it aint going to be my decision
it like he told kaite that he would stop talking to me and wouldnt be my friend for her .. i hope he knows how bad that hurt me i just dont get it i wouldnt ever do that to my friend why would someone do that to me im jus so confuse i just i realy dont know if he keeps douting are friendship then it really aint a friendship at all i dunno i love chuck as a friend more than i love anyone else ,, is just how things go i never have a friend to last and its usally my fault
im so sorry chuck i dont want you in the middle of it ..it was between me and her not me you and her .. i didnt fight her over you and you told ur friend jonathon that and i didnt .. i mean i almost lost you a couple weeks ago and now i feel like im going to loose you again b\c of kaite
i mean when i say stuff like pick katie if it ever comes down to it , its b\c i really friend would let go of another friend just for them to be happy and you know thats all i wont is for you to be happy ... im scared for you to go back like you was and now if you do i feel like i wont be there next time i really feel like im looseing chuck and i cant do anything about it .. god im not making you pick why the hell is she you wanna know why b\c she knows youll pick her .. i use to be so sure you would pick me but man im not anymore ... im just sick of the bullshit and lies i just want the truth for once ,,.... like what your thinking about the whole thing so i can prepare myself on what life is about to bring instead of having just it all at once it just feels like my heart is getting ripped out or my whole world is ending when i find out stuff like how you told us fuck it . i couldnt breath i mean what kind of person am i if my best friend doesnt even want to be friends w\ me anymore and i know its all my fault

so yet ill do it better i wont tell noone first

Fri, 22 Apr 2005 05:55:34 GMT

well today was an okay day after my dad let i went to angies and me and her smoked out and then walked up to the pool hall then my mom picked me up and i can home where chuck came over for a min. yay!!!!!!!!! hes my bestest friend and i miss him so i was happy from there on out and now chucks back home once again and i get to talk to him more than 30 mins now thank god

omg i am so pissed i am SO FREAKIN PISSED!!!! WHY DID IT HAVE TO BE THIS WEEK .. tomorrow sounded so fun hmm next week
and ahh i see how things are
and today i found out im in DC and yes this excites me * dont laugh at me*

ive never seen someone take so much shit just to be happy
and maybe i should just be happy and take the shit too

fuck you , fuck me , fuck us , fuck tom , fuck mary , fuck gus , fuck darius , fuck the west coast and fuck everyone on the east , eat shit and die or fuck off at least.

Thu, 21 Apr 2005 02:53:15 GMT

well okay where do i start

i got into a fight w\ katie ratliff and i whooped the fuck out of her nd well that was that and then i got charged w\ assult so i got the cuffs and a ride to the police station where they gave me my court date and filled the police report out .. i hit her w\ a lunch tray i was great but yea im in alt. school ..whoo school all summer and angie got 3 days in and 3 days out and got kick off the band trip when katie only got 2 days of ISP wtf yea katie better watch out tho

well offier penny said it was the best fight all year

and to myself i can handle all these mood swing one day i care and the other i dont .. makes me wonder

and o chuck im sorry i know you dont think i am but man i rather you be happy than you be my friend

and to others and to my best friend the most i love yo guys

Wed, 20 Apr 2005 02:57:58 GMT

i feel like ive done soemthing wrong like something i might regret but i cant think of wat

im pissed jacquelyne's cusin fucked over one of my friends and hes pissed off at me b\c i called thats bullshit you know?> im like WTF but its watever

i hate life at the moment and i have my reasons .. ive put it all in a little note b]c i have noone to talk to b\c i think my best friend either hates me or i wont even be able to talk to him b\c of his fuck 30 mins shit i dunno

well journal you wanna know why my life sucks b\c the one thing i want in fucking life the shit i would kill for i wll NEVER get so what is there to accomplish in my life just to live it out i have nothing to live for.

i really really want to talk to chris orosco for some odd reason i usally want to talk to him when life gets hard . i liked that kid alot but i didnt even give him a try b\c im just fucked up in the head i really am

and i dont even give a fuck who reads this anymore b\c if you dont like it then i didnt ask you to be my friend

chuck man i fucking love you i dont even know what the fucking do anymore . what do i have to do or what did i not give you that katie has b\c i know i could give you more i know im not good enuff but man i could make you happy

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' and that shit right there is why im fucked up b\c i just cant stop loving someone that doesnt even love me

krissy

Tue, 19 Apr 2005 02:32:32 GMT

another one for the books

but yea i had a good couple days just been bonding w\ my mom . i was suppose to go see chuck but his step mom is a great bitch

i dunno if i ever said anything in this journal about wat im most fear of at the moment but i think wat i was afraid of happening is starting

oh i relized what makes me sad ..that the only thing that i want in life i will never have .. so whats the point in living.... i only get the next best thing

find the best , keep the best

i would quit everything for you , weed , drinking , any drugs , anything just to have you

chuck i hate that we can only talk for 30 mins i dunno what was worse how everything was b4 or after .. it sucks b\c ive been trying to talk to you about something for the past 2 weeks but i have not ime

my mommie loves me

and grill cheeses rock

Sun, 17 Apr 2005 06:39:01 GMT

we ll at the moment im talking to alice abiut life and all that .. but yea today had sucked b\c im grounded so i cant do shit so i just slept all day till like 6 in the after noon and then i called chuck to see what he was doing i wanted to go visit him so bad b\c i miss him and his sexy body so bad lol but yea i miss ny best friend so i wanted to visit him but nooo we didnt have an gas which pissed me off maybe i dunno maybe will hang out tomrrow which well is today acutally i dunno will see when it happens ..... im kinda getting tierd so that sucks i dunno im listening to this cd i burned chuck of icp and all them and chuck if i dont give you think cd remind me b\c i might forget to tell youbut anyways

im gorunded i hate it

can i move out and live at your house?

ive notice the scared on my arm arent getting an better -sign-

i cant stop getting in trouble i dont wanna get introuble i really dont it sucks but oh well life only gets better

well i guess i should wait for the best

Sat, 16 Apr 2005 04:25:37 GMT

well i havent updated in like forever but yea i talk to chuck yesterday for the 1st time since hes got back .. im happy i missed him so much sign

i need to know what was up w\ the last time we talk really i do i dunno

im fixing to whoop the fuck out of katie ratcliff bitch hoe

and chuck wat you said the sunday night wen we hung out was all that shit just said b\c you was drunk?

i wish chuck would call me or i had some one to talk to im so lonely and im f'in grounded which sucks but hopefully not tomorrow ima see if i can hang out w\ my best friend

find the best , keep the best

Sat, 09 Apr 2005 07:03:29 GMT

i miss him so much i do i really do i feel like on of those lost puppies thats walking in circles just confused you know?

chuck your probaly going to read this on day and i just wanted you to know I LOVE YOU and dont feel bad if you dont love me back b\c its okay i just wanted you to know i love you so fuckig much omg i doo

and you ask me not to wait and i just cant help to think ive always waited on everything like with sean i wait for him for six months , greg i wait to go out w\ him as soon as he broke up w\ jessi and i wait to go out w\ you when you took forever to break up w\ katie you know im use to it

i want to give you the world and like you told me you know i would treat you right , you just dont know why your w\ all these other bitches

i miss you when i havent talk to you in hours ,...its been like 4 days

i want my poohbear

forever

i love you

krissy

Mon, 28 Mar 2005 02:16:41 GMT

well lets see i havent updated this bitch in like forever so im just going to do some highlights i periced my tounge like 4 weeks ago and i got a tatoo so yea ive been hanging out w\ just ppl in drummonds i just got home today for being gone like 4 days i was at katie rodgers house . they want me to move in over there and i wish i can bc it be great ... well this weekend was great but at the same time kinda shitty i start one of my really old habits and i smoke a whole pack of cigs in 1 day thats carzy well yea im failing so ill be in 10th grade once more its str8 ..well im not inlove anymore so thats so much better .... but yea i dunno im lookin to date someoe but who is the question i dunno yet but yea ive been chillin w\ liz drafiin and katie alot and peeps from DC and my mom doesnt hate chuck anymore so hes been at my house alot so yea i dunno what else ......

Fri, 21 Jan 2005 02:30:39 GMT

Im going out w\ greg rodgers!!!

ive been wrote up 14 times this year ..... 6x by trobaugh -sign-

im not as mad at chuck as i was me and him are still best friends

i love you chucky whucky

i dont think me and danylle will be friends for long ...its her choice not mine

but dont i look sexy

Tue, 11 Jan 2005 04:10:12 GMT

1\9\05
ME AND CHUCK FINALLY ARE GOING OUT!!!

I LOVE YOU SO MUCH POOHBEAR

Sun, 02 Jan 2005 12:54:29 GMT

im in love with him

and

hes in love with me

can we say

fairy tell come true

Sun, 02 Jan 2005 08:22:05 GMT

i have to say 2004 was the best year of my life

Fri, 31 Dec 2004 05:13:55 GMT

i want everyone to know

I LOVE CHUCK HUGHES

i think it might just happen

one day ill have very blonde chink kids but not until im like 20 or so

and to get the story straight im not a chinese miget rapist who sales won-ton biskits

*i think life has been so great for me this break *

and chuck if you every read i love you more than you know

Thu, 30 Dec 2004 19:28:04 GMT

i wanted to update my journal with all the invents that have passes that everyone missed b\c i could not update

OCTOBER
19- me,danylle, angie and jessica got introuble for putting someones purse in the bath room . me and angie got 3 days of ISP and danylle and jessica got 2 days detention.
21- mom cussed out trobaugh and the 2 white princples

NOVEMBER
1- worst day of my life, found out the one person i loved the most killed himself
11- me ,chuck, jessi and jacie tryed to skip school but we got chase down by an ass. princple , 1 day of ISP
16- got wrote up for out of place
19-band dance ....one word strange
20-party hardy

DECEMBER
1- did the robot on cafe. tables during c lunch
7- me and chris orosco started dating
9-broke up w\ chris
10-danylles birthday!*~!*~
11- christmas parade , me and danylle skipped , started dating shane williams
13- gregs birthday!*~!*~
16-broke up with shane
21-winter solstice
25- got my computer

i think thats pretty much it

Wed, 29 Dec 2004 23:11:50 GMT

Take the quiz: "Which ICP Artist are you most like?"

Shaggy 2 Dope
You are like Shaggy the southwest strangula!

hes so fine

Mon, 27 Dec 2004 01:48:37 GMT

why does it happen

i liked him

but what am i suppose to say

fuck it

im puting big ass red strikes in my hair monday hope it looks good

i love someone and i want to date him
but hes still in love w\ someone else
is it me or does this remind you of a movie and they always end up getting married
maybe this will happen to me

please do me a favor and talk to me thats all i want

eat shit and die
killed bye me krissy

Sat, 25 Dec 2004 19:35:26 GMT

imback finally ....... i have my new computer .....ahhh im so happy .....but yea im mad b\c my parents aint letting me get my tounge pierced but they will let me oh yes they will lol i hope everyone has a merry christmas and hopefully ill chat w\ yall soon

love me krissy
(the krismaster)
stanley

Thu, 02 Dec 2004 00:56:16 GMT

-SIGN-

well how this past month was my worst\best month ever ....... i loved it but both hated it at the same time ......

life is hell and im scared to death about something ......

and to the very special person who reads this ...fuck you ...you know who u are

im tierd of being used ......... yea talk to me one week the next you hardly say hi back ....but who cares

i only love one person and thats my best friend danylle and i love chuck just on the weekends ......

Sat, 20 Nov 2004 06:10:09 GMT

hey peeps long time no type but yea ... alot of things have happen over this period of me not having a computer but i really dont want to type it ..... ah i think i shall have a b\f soon ...i dunno i have a few peeps im thinking about...but yea ...... i really hate MHS still getting trouble so much this year ..... and i BURNT my neck today on a curling iron ..... but yea i think im going to drop alot of my friends off ...i hate them .....ahhh im so full of hate but oh well ....... fuck everyone really if you hate me then why do you even know my name ........ ah but lately me and mikey have been hanging out thats kewl i guess .... but yea ...ppl believe everything these ages .... kill me please ..... but have agood turkey break and i love yall all ...... love me kristina lyn stanley

Mon, 18 Oct 2004 21:07:18 GMT

hey guys

my computer has totally crashed so if your waiting for me to log online its not going to happen any time soon so your gonna have to call me if you need me ....dont have my number? then find someone that does

ah this sucks ill miss yall my internet friends lol

<3 krissy